Gotta Let Go

Ooh wee I am so overdue! I know you missed me! A lot has occured and I have been extra busy getting life together. I have to say I am a happy camper when it comes to certain things. Now on the other hand, some issues are gnawing at the back of my neck trying to get me to just blow up!

So a few weeks ago I made a promise to myself. I was going to let go of some of my "bad habits" and try my best to do better. Well we're all grown here, right? One of my worst habits is going back to my ex. Here's why! He is what I call an addiction. I met him right after getting out of a relationship, when I was vulnerable. So yes I was attracted to him and I was reeled in easily. Also, he is chocolate and sexy! That's enough right there!! Plus there are things he can do...oh my bad! Anyhoo, everytime things start looking up in my life and I am happy, who pops up?? We'll call him "Choco Latte". He pops up out of nowhere and it's like we pick up right where we left off. I can go months, years without seeing or talking to him, and Choco Latte will email, text, Yahoo Messenger me and then "Oops I Did It Again"!!

This guy is like poison and a Margarita all wrapped into one. You don't need it but you can't stay away! Ugh! It's annoying, and sad. So I talked to my sister and she of course called me a "badass" and patted me on the back via the internet. But then we got serious about it. I know I have to let him go and stay away from him. But we all know how easy that is?! So what do you do? How do you stay away from someone who is literally part of you, part of your soul? How do you let go?

For once, I don't have the answer. But I did step one: blocked numbers and email. Too bad he can call from other numbers! Oy vey! I'll keep ya posted on this one. LOL Sheesh!

Oh yeah, listen to Kelly Price's song "Himaholic"...that's my song for him!!